Horrible Horrible

I can't stop crying..

I just found, well rather Ileigh found, one of my cats dead.
If I had just found it dead it wouldn't be a huge huge deal but it's worse.
Andy installed this wire thing on the gate so that it automatically closes when left open. Socks must have been trying to jump over the fence when his leg got caught. I don't know how long he was there. I didn't hear him crying or anything!!!!!!!
He didn't rip his leg off or anything he was just was dangling upside down. I am hysterical.

If only I would've looked out back or heard him. I have been home all day. He must've suffered so much. I am so mad at myself! I deserve a bad cat bite or something.

We had to cut the wire off and I just collapsed crying outside. I am sorry to go on and on and be so graphic. I just know that I can express myself here.

Thanks for listening.

I am so sorry Socks.. I loved you.